9.12.22: Love

Context: It’s impossible for me to feel loveable, and it’s only very occasionally that I feel loved, except by my closest family. This applies both with other people and with God. It’s such a familiar experience that I mostly accept it pretty well. However, it sometimes makes me sad, particularly when I don’t experience the warmth of God’s love in my prayers and silence. Yesterday morning I was able to put this into words for the first time:

He loves us with unfailing love (Psalm 117:2; NLT). 

I can’t feel as if you love me,
But you do, Lord.

I can’t feel as if you love me,
Yet I trust.

I can’t feel as if you love me,
Still, I try, Lord,

Though I am nothing more
Than ash, and dust.

I am nothing but dust and ashes (Genesis 18:27; NIV).


Trust in God, and trust also in me (John 14:1; NLT).

Blessed are those who have not seen and yet believe (John 20:29; CSB).

Rosary-making news:

I’m now launched on making rosaries for other people, and have fashioned two, which are holding together so far, so I’m hoping to wrap and post them very soon.

2 thoughts on “9.12.22: Love

  • Dearest Ruth, I am absolutely glued to your website. You have such faith and it is so peaceful and wonderful. I recognise my rosary. I am looking forward to praying it soon, when it is safe to be sent.
    God bless you my dear sister Ruth.

    • What beautiful, kind words! I’m longing to post your rosary. If you could let me know when the strikes end, that would be incredibly helpful. We don’t have a strike here on the island, so it’s hard to know what’s happening across the sea. Any news gratefully received! XXXXXX

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