Prayer, suffering, life, courage, help, bear, illness, mental, physical,

My mother

Father, forgive them, for they don’t know what they are doing (Luke 23:34; NLT).

Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us (Luke 11:4; NLT).

Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you (Matthew 5:44; NIV).

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My mother,
Who is old,
Is slowly dying.

She’s never
Going to say
She’s sorry now.

Help me
To accept this,
To forgive her,

To understand,
And love her, Lord –
Somehow.

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New Year

Happy New Year everyone, though I know that for many of us, this won’t be an easy time. Life can be very hard, but the New Year does offer us the chance to make a fresh start. That’s what today’s prayer is about, so I’m sending it out early, for the sake of those who are struggling.

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I was given a thorn in my flesh […] Three times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:7-9; NLT).

I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full (John 10:10; NLT).

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New Year –

The time
To face our losses squarely;

To grieve,
In preparation to move on.

Then accept, adapt,
And give up all self-pity,

And do our best
To learn to live again.

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Why do we kick?

Lord,

Why do we kick so hard
Against our suffering,
For life is full of sorrow
And distress?

Why do we find it hard
To face the fact
That we must all know sickness,
Loss, and death?

In theory, our upbringing
And experience
Should equip us to accept
What we must bear;

But for many of us
This is not what happens,
So we wallow in self-pity
And despair.

Please help us to give up
Our fond illusion
That bad things shouldn’t happen here
At all.

Then, may we turn to you
For strength and courage,
For you are great, Lord God,
Though we are small.

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Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows (John 16:33; NLT).

How frail is humanity! How short is life, how full of trouble! (Job 14:1; NLT).

Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid” (Matthew 14:27; NIV).

March on with courage, my soul! (Judges 5:21; NLT).

With your help I can advance against a troop, with my God I can scale a wall (2 Samuel 22:30; NIV).

You are great (Jeremiah 10:6; NLT).

I am small (Psalm 119:141; NKJV).

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Agoraphobia diary: day 2

Hello, friends. Well, after texting my son to explain my claustrophobic fear of sitting in the back of the car between two child seats (as mentioned in my previous blog), I managed it – all the way to Cambridge and back to Ely. Being honest about it was a huge help. The only time I was uncomfortable was when we were looking for a parking space in busy side-streets. I felt we might never get out of the car, but hung on to my courage, and coped.

The object of the journey was an archaeology open day, mainly intended for children. It was busy and crowded, the only bad moments being when I couldn’t find any members of the family. Afterwards we had a windy, cool picnic by the river Cam, watching the boat crews of various colleges going through their drills. As I got more tired, I began to long for some security and a good rest, so was very pleased to get back to my hotel room and put my feet up for an exhausted sleep.

My most triumphant moments involved herding a large, aggressively-hissing swan back into the water three or four times. It came astonishingly close, and was taller than my grandchildren. It was an unusual thing for me to do, but perhaps by then I felt I had nothing left to lose!

Increasingly, I’m reflecting on what healing actually means, as seen in today’s blog:

 

What is healing?

 

Lord God,

We know
You heal all our diseases,

But what, exactly,
Does this healing mean?

Sometimes it means
The end of pain and suffering;

Sometimes it means
Embracing them, like you.

 

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He […] heals all my diseases (Psalm 103:3; NLT).

Yet I said to myself, “This is my sickness, and I must endure it” (Jeremiah:10;19; NIV).

“The Son of Man must suffer many terrible things,” he said (Luke 9:22; NLT).

Those who suffer he delivers in their suffering; he speaks to them in their affliction (Job 36:15; NIV).

I was given a thorn in my flesh […] Three times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:7-9; NLT).

In everything we do, we show that we are true ministers of God. We patiently endure troubles and hardships and calamities of every kind (2 Corinthians 6:4; NLT).

We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him (Romans 8:28; NIV).

The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised (Job 1:21; NIV).

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Accept your pain

Enjoy prosperity while you can, but when hard times strike, realise that both come from God. Remember that nothing is certain in this life (Ecclesiastes 7:14; NLT).

Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows (John 16:33; NLT).

The Lord gave me what I had, and the Lord has taken it away. Praise the name of the Lord! (Job 1:21; NLT).

Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble? (Job 2:10; NIV).

The Lord gives both death and life (1 Samuel 2:6; NLT).

The Lord is near (Philippians 4:5; NIV).

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Accept your pain,
Accept your strife,
Accept your self,
Accept your life.

Accept your joy,
Accept your fear,
Accept your death,
For God is near.

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There’s nothing left

The Lord is my light and my salvation – whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life – of whom shall I be afraid? (Psalm 27:1).

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Lord,

There’s nothing left
For me to be afraid of,
Now that I have found
My shadow side.

There’s nothing left
For me to be afraid of,
Now that I can hear
My shadow’s voice.

There’s nothing left
For me to be afraid of,
Now that I accept
My shadow’s words.

And there’s nothing left
For me to be afraid of,
Now that I embrace
My shadow self.

 

 

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