Breast cancer, mastectomy,, Faith, hope, love, God, Prayer

Ask, seek, knock

Can a person do anything to help God? Can even a wise person be helpful to him? (Job 22:2; NLT).

If I were hungry, I would not tell you, for all the world is mine and everything in it (Psalm 50:7,12; NLT).

Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you (Matthew 7:7; NLT).

For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known (1 Corinthians 13:12; NIV).


Father,

There is nothing I can do
To impress you.

Neither do you need my help
In any way.

Yet still you love me,
And desire my love.

So I’ll keep on
Seeking you,

And  knocking at your door,
Until it opens.

Then I will see you,
Face to face, at last,

And know you fully,
Just as I am fully known.

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Chosen One

 

Lord Jesus,
You are God’s Chosen One.
Please help me to listen for your voice.

Lord Jesus,
You are the way. 
Please help me to follow your path.

Lord Jesus,
You are the truth. 
Please help me to live by your gospel.

Lord Jesus,
You are the life. 
Please help me to serve you with a willing heart.

 

References

This is my Son, my Chosen One. Listen to him (Luke 9:35; NLT).

I am the way, the truth and the life (John 14:6; NLT).

Worship and serve him with your whole heart and a willing mind (1 Chronicles 28:9; NLT).

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A Gethsemane experience

 

On the day of my mastectomy, as I waited on a trolley outside the anaesthetic room, I was suddenly overwhelmed by a profound terror of suffering and death, just as Jesus was in the Garden of Gethsemane. I felt completely helpless, despairing and alone, shaking uncontrollably with cold and fear. 

Then my surgeon entered the room in blue scrubs. She must have seen at once how distressed I was, because she came straight over to me, putting her arms around me and bending down to lay her head gently on my chest. She seemed like an angel of comfort and strength. I managed to whisper, through chattering teeth, “I’m so frightened!” She didn’t even speak, just held me as I sobbed helplessly. 

After a time, realising how cold I was, she moved to stand behind me, rubbing my arms to warm me, until I was pushed into an ante-room and quickly, skilfully anaesthetised. 

That evening, after the surgery, I wept again. I felt as if I had experienced something of what Christ suffered in Gethsemane, just as those gazing at a representation of Jesus on the cross occasionally undergo the pain and powerlessness of his crucifixion. 

Next day, however, I realised that rather than we ordinary mortals sometimes sharing what Jesus experienced, it was, in fact, he who fully shared our primeval, human terror in the face of imminent suffering and death.

 Of course, there are major differences between my experience and his. I was facing my profound fear of anaesthesia and surgery solely for my own benefit. Jesus, on the other hand, was facing betrayal, torture and death so our sins could be forgiven. I hope I will never cease to thank him for what he faced and endured for our sake.

 

References

My heart pounds in my chest. The terror of death assaults me. Fear and trembling overwhelm me, and I can’t stop shaking (Psalm 55:4-5; NLT).

They went to the olive grove called Gethsemane, and Jesus said, “Sit here while I go and pray.” He took Peter, James and John with him, and he became deeply troubled and distressed. He told them, “My soul is crushed with grief to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.” He went on a little further and fell to the ground. He prayed that, if it were possible, the awful hour awaiting him might pass him by (Mark 14:32-5; NLT).  

Then an angel from heaven appeared and strengthened him. He prayed more fervently, and he was in such agony of spirit that his sweat fell to the ground like great drops of blood (Luke 22:43-4; NLT).

Angels came and took care of Jesus (Matthew 4:11; NLT).

In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace (Ephesians 1:7; NIV).

God proves his love for us in that while we were still sinners Christ died for us (Romans 5:8, NRSV). 

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Drink this cup

I wrote this prayer today (5.9.18), at 7.30am, before a hospital visit:

Sit down, my child,
And drink this cup
Of suffering,
Which I have brought. 

Remember all 
That Jesus did,
And practice all
That Jesus taught.

And do not fear
What lies ahead –
The sickness, pain,
And suffering –

Just fix your heart
Upon the prize:
Eternal life,
With Christ, your King.

At 4pm the same day, I learned that I have two invasive cancers in my left breast, so will be having surgery soon. When it seems appropriate, I’ll include news of what’s happening with my daily blogs. If I miss a day or two, which I’ve never done before, you will know there’s a good reason.

References

Shall I not drink from the cup of suffering the Father has given me? (John 18:11; NLT).

Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows (John 16:33; NLT).

Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? (Matthew 6:27; NLT).

Be strong, and do not fear (Isaiah 35:4; NLT).

I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong (2 Corinthians 12:10; KJV).

I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us (Philippians 3:14; NLT).

For you died to this life, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God (Colossians 3:3; NLT).

Look, your King is coming to you. He is humble, riding on a donkey – riding on a donkey’s colt (Matthew 21:5; NLT). 

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May I love you

Father,
May I love you,

Jesus,
May I serve you,

Spirit,
May I be your shrine

Each moment
Of my life.

……………………………….

References

You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind (Luke 10:27; NLT).

Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said, “Anyone who wants to be first must be the very last, and the servant of all” (Mark 9:35; NIV).

Do you not know that you are the temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you? (1 Corinthians 3:16; NKJV).

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A hundred thousand stages

Don’t just pretend to love others. Really love them (Romans 12.9; NLT).

This is the secret: Christ lives in you (Colossians 1:27; NLT).

It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me (Galatians 2:20; NLT). 

Instead, we will speak the truth in love, growing in every way more and more like Christ (Ephesians 4:15; NLT).

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Jesus,
By a hundred thousand stages,

May we learn to love all beings –
Just like you. 

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The Spirit of God

Let us praise the Lord,
Our heavenly Father,

Who sent the Christ,
His Son, in whom we trust;

For the Spirit of our God
Lives in Christ Jesus,

And the Spirit of Christ Jesus
Lives in us.

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God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life (John 3:16; NLT).

I have come as a light to shine in this dark world, so that all who put their trust in me will no longer remain in the dark (John 12:46; NLT).

He saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and settling on him (Matthew 3:16; NLT).

Those who do not have the Spirit of Christ living in them do not belong to him at all (Romans 8:9; NLT).

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