agoraphobia, depression, anxiety, chronic fatigue, cycling,, Prayer

Agoraphobia diary: day 2

Hello, friends. Well, after texting my son to explain my claustrophobic fear of sitting in the back of the car between two child seats (as mentioned in my previous blog), I managed it – all the way to Cambridge and back to Ely. Being honest about it was a huge help. The only time I was uncomfortable was when we were looking for a parking space in busy side-streets. I felt we might never get out of the car, but hung on to my courage, and coped.

The object of the journey was an archaeology open day, mainly intended for children. It was busy and crowded, the only bad moments being when I couldn’t find any members of the family. Afterwards we had a windy, cool picnic by the river Cam, watching the boat crews of various colleges going through their drills. As I got more tired, I began to long for some security and a good rest, so was very pleased to get back to my hotel room and put my feet up for an exhausted sleep.

My most triumphant moments involved herding a large, aggressively-hissing swan back into the water three or four times. It came astonishingly close, and was taller than my grandchildren. It was an unusual thing for me to do, but perhaps by then I felt I had nothing left to lose!

Increasingly, I’m reflecting on what healing actually means, as seen in today’s blog:

 

What is healing?

 

Lord God,

We know
You heal all our diseases,

But what, exactly,
Does this healing mean?

Sometimes it means
The end of pain and suffering;

Sometimes it means
Embracing them, like you.

 

*******************************************

He […] heals all my diseases (Psalm 103:3; NLT).

Yet I said to myself, “This is my sickness, and I must endure it” (Jeremiah:10;19; NIV).

“The Son of Man must suffer many terrible things,” he said (Luke 9:22; NLT).

Those who suffer he delivers in their suffering; he speaks to them in their affliction (Job 36:15; NIV).

I was given a thorn in my flesh […] Three times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:7-9; NLT).

In everything we do, we show that we are true ministers of God. We patiently endure troubles and hardships and calamities of every kind (2 Corinthians 6:4; NLT).

We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him (Romans 8:28; NIV).

The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised (Job 1:21; NIV).

Advertisements
Standard
Prayer, suffering, life, courage, help, bear, illness, mental, physical,

Everlasting arms

The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms (Deuteronomy 33:27; NIV).

Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me (Psalm 23:4; KJV).

********************************

Lord,

Underneath us
Are your everlasting arms,

Which do not take away
Our pain and suffering,

But help us throughout life,
And through our death.

Standard
body, mind, heart, soul, realisation, important, prayer, contemplation,, Prayer

Your kingdom

The Kingdom of God has arrived (Luke 11:20; NLT).

The kingdom of God is already among you (Luke 17:21; NLT).

The Kingdom of God is within you (Luke 17:21; NKJV).

You are the temple of the living God (2 Corinthians 6:16; NLT).

***************************

Your kingdom’s
In our flesh, Lord,
So we pray for all
Who go through
Pain and sickness.

Your kingdom’s
In our minds, Lord,
So we pray for all
Who live with
Mental illness.

Your kingdom’s
In our hearts, Lord,
So we pray for all
Who do not know
Your love.

Your kingdom’s
In our souls, Lord,
So we pray for all
Who suffer
For their faith.

Standard
light, fire, love, peace, prayer, faith, contemplation, God,, Prayer, suffering, life, courage, help, bear, illness, mental, physical,

So much suffering

Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows (John 16:33; NLT).

How frail is humanity! How short life is and full of trouble! (Job 14:1; NLT).

Father, if you are willing, please take this cup off suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine (Luke 22:42; NLT).

Hold fast to him (Deuteronomy 10:20; NIV).

****************************************

Lord,

There’s so much suffering
In our brief, human lives,

Such pain to bear,
Such losses to sustain.

Please strengthen us
To face our trials bravely,

And help us to hold fast
Our faith, like you.

Standard
Prayer, spiritual development, personal growth, faith, exploration, wholeness,

Will there be an end?

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain (Revelation 21:4; NLT).

I will give you back your health and heal your wounds (Jeremiah 30:17; NLT).

Rejoice in hope (Romans 12:12; NRSV).

*****************************

 

Lord,
Will there be an end
To all our sorrows?

Will there be an end
To all our fears?

Will there be an end
To all our suffering?

Will there be an end
To all our tears?

Lord,
Will there be an end
To our depression?

Will there be an end
To all our pain?

Will there be an end
To our exhaustion?

Will we rejoice,
And hope in you again?

Standard
Prayer, spiritual development, personal growth, faith, exploration, wholeness,

Accept your pain

Enjoy prosperity while you can, but when hard times strike, realise that both come from God. Remember that nothing is certain in this life (Ecclesiastes 7:14; NLT).

Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows (John 16:33; NLT).

The Lord gave me what I had, and the Lord has taken it away. Praise the name of the Lord! (Job 1:21; NLT).

Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble? (Job 2:10; NIV).

The Lord gives both death and life (1 Samuel 2:6; NLT).

The Lord is near (Philippians 4:5; NIV).

*******************************************

 

Accept your pain,
Accept your strife,
Accept your self,
Accept your life.

Accept your joy,
Accept your fear,
Accept your death,
For God is near.

Standard
Prayer

In darkness

You have brought me into your presence forever (Psalm 41:12; NLT).

He loves us with unfailing love (Psalm 117:2; NLT).

Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me (Psalm 23:4; KJV).

 

Lord,
I’m in darkness,
But you’re with me;
I am lonely,
But you’re here.

I’m distressed,
But you are with me;
I am anxious,
But you’re here.

I am sick,
But you are with me;
I’m in pain,
But you are here;

I’m afraid,
But you are with me;
I am dying,
But you’re here.

 

Standard