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In your presence

When I wake up, you are still with me! (Psalm 139:18; NLT).

I know the Lord is always with me (Psalm 16:8; NLT).

The kingdom of God is within you (Luke 17:21; KJV).

You are the temple of the living God (2 Corinthians 6:16; NLT).



I sleep and wake
In your presence;

Walk and talk
In your presence;

Work and rest
In your presence;

Love and pray
In your presence –

For you
Dwell in my soul

Both night
And day.

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When someone hurts me

When someone hurts me, I tell them how I feel. If they apologise, I forgive them immediately and genuinely, without hesitation. Then we put what happened behind us, and our relationship is undamaged.

However, when someone hurts me, but doesn’t apologise, we inevitably have unfinished business. The relationship becomes awkward. I’m tempted to avoid the person, and may even do so. I wait for months, sometimes even years, still hoping they will think about what they did, and that in the end they will care enough to approach me. Meanwhile, I pray for them each day, whilst trying to forgive and love them.

Eventually, I realise they are not going to apologise, and give up hoping, which is a big step forward. I face the fact that forgiving them is entirely my responsibility, because the other person involved isn’t going to help in any way. They may have forgotten what happened, or simply not care. However, I still need to forgive them, and to work out how to love them and relate to to them, despite what they did. This is a big challenge.

From this point onwards, I continue praying for the person and trying to forgive and love them, whilst also attempting to develop a new relationship with them, if possible. On my side, at least, this new relationship will, of necessity, recognise, include and accept all that has passed between us, both good and bad.

In my experience, learning to forgive those who hurt us, but won’t apologise, is one of the most challenging spiritual tasks we face throughout our lives. However, such forgiveness is a vital healing process, if we are serious about spreading God’s kingdom on earth.


If your brother or sister sins against you, rebuke them, and if they repent, forgive them (Luke 17:3; NIV).

We will speak the truth in love, growing in every way more and more like Christ (Ephesians 4:15; NLT).

Father, forgive them, for they don’t know what they are doing (Luke 23:34; NLT).

Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us (Luke 11:4; NLT).

Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you (Matthew 5:44; NIV).

Don’t just pretend to love others. Really love them (Romans 12.9; NLT).

The Kingdom of God is within you (Luke 17:21; KJV).

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May I rejoice in you

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18; NIV).

Serve the Lord with gladness (Psalm 100:2; CSB).


May I rejoice in you
With every breath,

Pray to you
With every thought,

Thank you
With every word,

And serve you
In everything I do.

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For all who do not know you

Lord God,
I pray for all
Who do not know you;

For all
Who do not know
How much you care;

For all
Who do not know
How much you love us;

For all
Who live beside you,


The fool says in his heart, “There is no God” (Psalm 14:1; NIV).

“My people are foolish and do not know me,” says the Lord (Jeremiah 4:22; NLT).

They never call on the Lord (Psalm 14:2-4; NIV).

You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realise that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked (Revelation 3:17; NIV).

He loves us with unfailing love (Psalm 117:2; NLT).

He is right beside me (Psalm 16:8; NLT).

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Agoraphobia diary: 3pm on day 7

Greetings to you all. Well, I’ve done it! Today’s challenge was to travel by train from Loughborough to Warrington, changing at Nottingham, so I’m here in my hotel room now, absolutely drained. At each stage of my journey, just when I was getting anxious about what to do next, there was always a kind person ready to help. Outside Loughborough station, a very nice taxi driver I chatted to for a moment offered me a bottle of water, and we shared a hug. On the platform, the guard was happy to chat, which passed the anxious time until my train arrived, and so on.

Changing at Nottingham was very stressful. My train was already at the platform, but I needed the loos before boarding. They were on another platform, and I felt very rushed. It all worked out in the end, though, and passengers help each other quite a lot.

I had been thinking a good deal about the very long tunnels I knew we would pass through in Derbyshire, but managed surprisingly well. The lit train, the people chatting around me, and the large size of the compartment meant it was considerably less claustrophobic than I expected. My last train journey with major tunnels, taken about 45 years ago, was a traumatic nightmare I prefer to forget. Ever since that day, I’ve had occasional nightmares about being on trains in narrow, dark, never-ending tunnels. It’s only now that I’m beginning to realise just how damaging that journey was, because of my terribly anxious state of mind.

By the time I got to Warrington, I was spent, rather like yesterday afternoon – no thoughts, no fears, no ambitions, just a blank mind, accompanied by a familiar sensation, as if the ground was heaving up and down beneath my feet, like being in a boat. I was so tired that I wandered away from the station in the wrong direction, dimly looking for a taxi rank. To my surprise and sadness, the first person I asked for directions didn’t even register my greeting. Then I met a woman who, though clearly startled to be asked, pointed me in the right direction.

It’s a huge relief to be in my own quiet, dark room now, resting in bed and having lots of hot drinks. So here is today’s prayer, which I wrote during this morning’s contemplation:

Your peace


When I reach the station,
May I go in with you.

While I wait for my train,
May your arms encircle me.

As I board it,
May I hold your hand.

When the doors close,
May I know your presence.

As my journey starts,
May we pray together.

When I change trains,
May I share your calm.

During long tunnels,
May I feel your comfort.

When I arrive,
May I thank you deeply.

And, as I go on my way,
May I know your perfect peace.

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I can’t sleep

Here I am (1 Samuel 3:4; NIV).

The life of every living thing is in his hand (Job 12:10; NLT).

Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28; NLT).

You have brought me into your presence forever (Psalm 41:12; NLT).


Lord God,
I can’t sleep.

Here I am,
In your hand,

With nothing
To do,

And nothing
To say.

So many
Are sleepless;

I pray
For us all:

May we rest
In your presence,

Until break
Of day.

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I don’t just want to pray

Pray continually (1 Thessalonians 5:17; NIV).

Work hard and serve the Lord enthusiastically (Romans 12:11; NLT).

Praise God (Psalm 68:26; NLT).

Don’t just pretend to love others. Really love them (Romans 12:9; NLT).



Lord God,

I don’t just want to pray –
I want my life to be
Continual prayer.

I don’t just want to serve –
I want my life to be
Continual service.

I don’t just want to praise –
I want my life to be
Continual worship.

I don’t just want to care –
I want my life to be
Continual love.