agoraphobia, depression, anxiety, chronic fatigue, cycling,, Prayer

Agoraphobia diary: day 5

Hello to all readers. Today is the fifth day of my week-long agoraphobia challenge. The most difficult parts of my trip start to kick in today. My son will drive me from Ely to Leicestershire (about two hours), where we will arrive at my sister’s house around lunchtime. After lunch, my son will leave, and my sister and I will visit our mother in her care home not far away. That might not sound terribly difficult to some readers. However, seeing my mother is always stressful, as my agoraphobia, depression and anxiety go all the way back to my very earliest memories at home.

Over recent years I’ve slowly developed One or two coping techniques to help me through these visits, but I still dread them. As always, it will be interesting to observe how it goes, so I plan to share that with you in my evening blog, as long as I have sufficient energy left.

Finally, I’ll be staying at my sister’s house for two nights, so must say goodbye to my quiet hotel room and move on to a new temporary home. This is just another part of my week-long exposure exercise, but, as ever, it will take mental effort and physical energy to cope.

For those who follow this blog each day, here is my morning prayer. I’ll be keeping it pretty close to my heart during the car journey, later, at the nursing home, and in the night at my sister’s house.

Always with me

I know the Lord is always with me (Psalm 16:8; NLT).

When I wake up, you are still with me! (Psalm 139:18; NLT).

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Lord,
You are always
With me –

So when I wake,
I wake with you;

When I roam,
I roam with you;

When I work,
I work with you;

And when I rest,
I rest with you.

Amen.

 

 

 

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I can’t sleep

Here I am (1 Samuel 3:4; NIV).

The life of every living thing is in his hand (Job 12:10; NLT).

Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28; NLT).

You have brought me into your presence forever (Psalm 41:12; NLT).

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Lord God,
I can’t sleep.

Here I am,
In your hand,

With nothing
To do,

And nothing
To say.

So many
Are sleepless;

I pray
For us all:

May we rest
In your presence,

Until break
Of day.

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No matter what befalls us

God is light (1 John 1:5; NIV).

God [is] the source of all my joy (Psalm 43:4; NLT).

The Lord is peace (Judges 6:24; NIV).

God is love (1 John 4:8; NLT).

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Lord,

No matter
What befalls us,

May we live
In your light,

Share
In your joy,

Rest
In your peace,

And dwell
In your love –

For evermore.

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Your will be done

Your will be done (Matthew 6:10; NIV).

Our lives are in his hands (Psalm 66:9; NLT).

Wait patiently for him (Psalm 37:7; NIV).

Never stop praying (1 Thessalonians 5:17; NLT).

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Lord God,

Sometimes I wish so much
I could be well again,

For life is passing me by
Day after day.

It seems so pointless, Lord,
Yet may your will be done;

So I rest in your hands,
And wait, and pray.

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I live for you

Jesus replied, “All who love me will do what I say. My Father will love them, and we will come and make our home with each of them” (John 14:23; NLT).

There is one Lord […] who is over all and in all and living through all (Ephesians 4:5-6; NLT).

Whoever is united with the Lord is one with him in spirit (1 Corinthians 6:17).

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Lord God,
I live for you,
And you for me.

Lord God,
I dwell in you,
And you in me.

Lord God,
I pray through you,
And you through me.

Lord God,
I rest in you,
And you in me.

Lord God,
I serve through you,
And you through me.

Lord God,
I’m one with you,
And you with me.

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Light

Remain in me, and I will remain in you (John 15:4; NLT).

God is light (1 John 1:5; NIV).

Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength (Isaiah 40:31; NKJV).

I will be joyful in the God of my salvation! (Habakkuk 3:18; NLT).

 

Lord,
During meditation,
The longer I stay
In your light –

Resting,
Playing,
Dancing,
Or praying –

The stronger
And more joyful
I become.

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Peace

I am leaving you with a gift – peace of mind and heart (John 14:27; NLT).

Yes, my soul, find rest in God (Psalm 62:5; NIV).

You will find rest for your souls (Matthew 11:29; NLT).

 

Slow down your body,
Till you find
God’s peace
Within.

Next, still your mind,
Until you find
God’s peace
Within.

Then calm your heart,
Until you find
God’s peace
Within.

And, last of all, relax your soul,
Until you find
God’s peace
Within.

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