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A dream (27 February 2019)

Early yesterday morning, I had a strange and vivid dream, which I would like to share with you:

I’m sinking deep into my self, towards a small, intense, single cell of white light. It has a clearly outlined border, and a dark nucleus. I watch it slowly moving and changing shape, rather like an amoeba. It is alive.

As I descend towards it, I begin to realise that this light is far larger and brighter than it seemed at first. I plunge into it. The light surrounds and inundates me completely. Instantly, I lose all sight and sense of it having any boundaries at all. It is limitless. 

Then I understand that this light is God. There is no separation between it and myself, other people, animals, creation, the living, the dead, past, present, or future. Rather, all things are the infinite, incomprehensible oneness of God, who is, “Over all, in all, and living through all”.

Then I woke up, daylight streaming into my room. Later, whilst I was dressing, it came into my mind that no matter what happens, I am healed. 

Afterwards, I wrote down everything I had seen, experienced and understood, feeling stunned, awed, humbled, and utterly silenced. 

Friends, I have always known that one day the prayers God gives me would come to an end. It may be that I have reached that point, but I simply don’t know yet. Time will tell. 

 

References

God is light (1 John 1:5; NLT).

No power in the sky above or in the earth below – indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:39; NLT).

How great is God – beyond our understanding (Job 36:26; NIV).

There is […] one God and Father, who is over all and in all and living through all (Ephesians 4:5-6; NLT).

O Lord, please leave me – I’m too much of a sinner to be around you (Luke 5:8; NLT).

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We are one

Abba, Lord, I know how much 
You love me,

And I love you, Lord:
Father, Spirit, Son;

So every time 
I fail to love myself, Lord,

Please help me to remember
We are one.

 

References

He loves us with unfailing love (Psalm 117:2; NLT).

I love you, Lord (Psalm 18:1; NLT).

To acquire wisdom is to love oneself (Proverbs 19:8; NLT).

Love your neighbour as yourself (Mark 12:31; NLT).

Whoever is united with the Lord is one with him in spirit (1 Corinthians 6:17; NIV).

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In silent prayer

 

In silent prayer,
I face my inner wasteland.

In silent prayer,
I face temptation, too.

In silent prayer,
I face my fears and failures.

In silent prayer,
I face my self, like you. 

 

References 

Be silent before the Sovereign Lord (Zephaniah 1:7; NIV).

Jesus often withdrew to the wilderness for prayer (Luke 5:16; NLT).

Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted (Matthew 4:1; NLT).

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Draw me ever closer

 

Lord,
Draw me ever closer 
To your mind, 
So I may share your love 
For humankind.

Lord,
Draw me ever closer
To your heart, 
So you and I may never 
Be apart.

Lord, 
Draw me ever closer
To your soul,
So I may lose my self, 
And reach my goal.

(With many thanks to E.M.)

 

References

God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life (John 3:16; NLT).

The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love (Galatians 5:6; NIV).

Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them (1 John 4:16; NIV).

I am convinced that neither death nor life […] nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:38-9; NIV).

The dust returns to the ground it came from, and the spirit returns to God who gave it (Ecclesiastes 12:7; NIV).

I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus (Philippians 3:14; NIV).

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Self and soul

 

My self is made of thoughts,
Sensations, 
Feelings,

Which come and go, 
And change, Lord, 
Always new;

And though all these 
Will end, Lord, 
At my passing,

My soul won’t change,
For it is part 
Of you.

 

References 

I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb (Jeremiah 1:5; NLT).

I am the Lord and I do not change (Malachi 3:6; NLT).

The dust returns to the ground it came from, and the spirit returns to God who gave it (Ecclesiastes 12:7; NIV).

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May we throw out “self”

 

Father,
May we throw out self,
Like cargo from a storm-tossed ship,
Then take on board your only Son –
Lord, save us!

Father, 
May we throw out self,
Like tackle from a flooding ship,
Then take on board your Comforter –
Lord, save us!

Father, 
May we throw out self,
Like treasure from a sinking ship,
Then take on board your presence, Lord – 
Please save us!

 

References

As gale-force winds continued to batter the ship, the crew began throwing the cargo overboard (Acts  27:18; NLT).

Then he [Jesus] climbed into the boat, and the wind stopped (Mark 6:51; NLT).

Lord, save us! We’re going to drown! (Matthew 8:25; NLT).

They even took some of the ship’s gear and threw it overboard (Acts 27:19; NLT). 

I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you forever (John 14:16; KJV).

What do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul? (Mark 8:36; NLT). 

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