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Spiritual darkness



When I’m in  
Spiritual darkness,

I’m simply in the shadow
Of your wing. 



Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me (Psalm 23: 4; NLT).

Moses approached the thick darkness where God was (Exodus 20:21; NLY).

All humanity finds shelter in the shadow of your wings (Psalm 36:7; NLT).

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Invading thoughts

With your help I can advance against a troop, with my God I can scale a wall (2 Samuel 22:30; NIV).

Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint (Isaiah 40:31; NIV).

The Sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to tread the heights (Habakkuk 3:19; NIV).



I face invading thoughts
In contemplation,

And scale my cliffs
Of ignorance and fear.

I rise on eagle’s wings
To see my shadow,

And tread the heights with joy,
Just like a deer.

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As I journey

Be silent before the Sovereign Lord (Zephaniah 1:7; NIV).

Whoever is united with the Lord is one with him in spirit (1 Corinthians 6:17; NIV).



As I journey into contemplation
I travel through my outward self,
Traverse my shadow,
Then leave selfhood far behind,
Uniting with you,
In timeless, wordless bliss.

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Inner demons

Today’s prayer is a development from yesterday’s:

Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows (John 16:33; NLT).

Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted there by the devil (Matthew 4:1; NLT).

Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation (Matthew 26:41; NLT).

God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation (James 1:12; NLT).


Even you were tempted
By your inner demons, Lord –

The all-too-human urgings
Of your shadow –

So it’s no surprise
That we are tempted too.

Please help us
To endure temptation patiently;

To watch and pray,
So we will not give in;

For then we will become
Much more like you.

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Beneath my outward self

Today’s prayer follows directly on from yesterday’s:

In his shadow have I rapture (Song of Songs 2:3; DYB).

You are the temple of the living God (2 Corinthians 6:16; NLT).

The kingdom of God is within you (Luke 17:21; KJV).



Beneath my outward self:
My shadow.

Beneath my shadow self:
Your peace.

Beneath that peace:
Your wordless rapture.

Beneath that wordless rapture:

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Is there another self?

You are the temple of the living God (2 Corinthians 6:16; NLT).

The kingdom of God is within you (Luke 17:21; KJV).

The Spirit is truth (1 John 5:6; NKJV).




Is there another self
Beneath my shadow?

Are there still deeper selves
Beneath that, too?

As I explore my inner world
In silence,

Will I find me,
Or will I, in truth, find you?

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Quiet contemplation

God is light (1 John 1:5; NIV).

God is love (1 John 4:16; NIV).

The Lord is peace (Judges 6:24; NIV).

Keep on seeking, and you will find (Matthew 7:7; NLT).



During quiet contemplation,
When, finally, my thoughts
Have fallen silent,
I see your light,
And find your love
And peace.