Prayer, suffering, life, courage, help, bear, illness, mental, physical,

Be merciful

The Lord our God is merciful and forgiving (Daniel 9:9; NLT).

I will forgive their wickedness, and I will never again remember their sins (Jeremiah 31:34; NLT).

Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me (Psalm 23:4; KJV).

The dust returns to the ground it came from, and the spirit returns to God who gave it (Ecclesiastes 12:7; NIV).



Be merciful and kind
Towards my mother;

Forgive her sins,
Forgetting all that’s past.

Don’t let her suffer
Any pain or terror;

And bring her
To your kingdom, Lord,

At last.

agoraphobia, depression, anxiety, chronic fatigue, cycling,, Prayer

Agoraphobia diary: introduction

Warm greetings to you all. Some of you may remember a short trip I made by bike a couple of years ago, during which I stretched the boundaries of my agoraphobia. Today I’m starting a new challenge: the most demanding and complex journey I’ve ever made on my own. It will use all the skills I’ve slowly been working on throughout my life, including flying, cars, and trains (though I haven’t actually been on a train for many years). I’ll also be staying in 3 different locations, and having some painful hospital treatment, just to add an extra touch of excitement and exhaustion. As well as the agoraphobia, I also live with chronic fatigue, chronic depression, and chronic migraine, so the whole project will be taxing in a variety of different ways.

During this 7-day trip, I’ll do my very best to keep up with the daily blogs, but will also add a short, honest report on how things are going. So, to kick off, before I leave for the airport later this morning, here is today’s prayer, which is introduced by one of my very favourite quotations from the Bible:


Ye shall go out with joy, and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands (Isaiah 55:12; KJV).



I’ve suffered
All my life
From agoraphobia,

But now accept,
Embrace it,
Without pain.

I know that
It’s the product
Of my childhood,

For fear
Has shaped my body,
And my brain.

I live with it;
I’m not ashamed
To speak of it;

But manage it
As best I can,
With prayer;

So in one sense
I’m no longer

For I do not suffer,
Now I’ve learned
To care.

body, mind, heart, soul, realisation, important, prayer, contemplation,, Prayer

Your kingdom

The Kingdom of God has arrived (Luke 11:20; NLT).

The kingdom of God is already among you (Luke 17:21; NLT).

The Kingdom of God is within you (Luke 17:21; NKJV).

You are the temple of the living God (2 Corinthians 6:16; NLT).


Your kingdom’s
In our flesh, Lord,
So we pray for all
Who go through
Pain and sickness.

Your kingdom’s
In our minds, Lord,
So we pray for all
Who live with
Mental illness.

Your kingdom’s
In our hearts, Lord,
So we pray for all
Who do not know
Your love.

Your kingdom’s
In our souls, Lord,
So we pray for all
Who suffer
For their faith.


Rejoice and weep

Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep (Romans 12:15; NRSV).

God […] comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God (2 Corinthians 1:3-4; NIV).

In all their suffering he also suffered (Isaiah 63:9; NLT).

God made human beings in his own image (Genesis 9:6; NLT).


Lord God,
If we are to rejoice
With all those who rejoice,

And weep
With those who weep,

Then this must be
How you relate to us,

For you made us
In your image.



In your hands

In his hand is the life of every creature and the breath of all mankind (Job 12:10; NIV).

I am weary and worn out, O God (Proverbs 30:1; NLT).

Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me (Psalm 23:4; KJV).


Whether I flourish,
Or suffer,
Or die,

It’s good
To know
I’m always
In your hands.




Unless you are born again, you cannot see the Kingdom of God (John 3:3; NLT).

Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them (1 John 4:16; NIV).

Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise” (Luke 23:43; NIV).


We can choose
Each day
To be reborn
With you;

To live in you,
To love you,
And rejoice
In you;

To suffer with you,
Die with you,
And dwell in paradise
With you.

Or, Lord,
We can choose
To spend each day
Without you.