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Hello, my name is Ruth, and I’m a Christian, Catholic writer. I live with with chronic fatigue, invasive breast cancer, neuropathic pain, and various other medical conditions. I also have extensive experience of panic, agoraphobia, depression and anxiety, both personally and professionally. Whilst I’m praying I often have insights, which I try to express in writing. Then I share them with others via my website, twitter and Facebook.

I publish a short, original blog each day, praying for those who read it, as well as for all those who do not. I very much hope you will find something on my site that interests or helps you, and I welcome feedback and correspondence.

With best wishes, from Ruth xxxx

http://www.ruthkirk.org

Bending to your will

Lord,

May I face my enemies
As you did —

With swift forgiveness, 
Bending to your will. 

May I face my deepest fears 
As you did —

With cries for help,
Yet bending to your will.

May I face my suffering 
As you did — 

With full acceptance, 
Bending to your will. 

May I face my life and death 
As you did —

With constant prayer,
While bending to your will.

References

When they came to the place called The Skull, they nailed him to the cross […] Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they don’t know what they are doing” (Luke 23:33-4; NLT).

If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine (Matthew 26:39; NLT).

Pray constantly (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18; NIV).

May your will be done (Matthew 6:10; NLT).

Our wilderness

 

Lord,

Our wilderness
Can be a place
Of beauty;

Our wilderness
Can be a place
Of fear.

Our wilderness
Can be a place
Of suffering;

But, beautiful,
Or dreadful,
You are here.

 

References

Jesus often withdrew to the wilderness for prayer (Luke 5:16; NLT).

God is with us (Matthew 1:23; NLT). 

Comfort and strength

 

Lord, 

Comfort me,
And give me strength,

To face the trials
I must bear;

And may I comfort 
Others, too,

And strengthen them,
When they must share 

The suffering 
None can avoid –  

So we may grow 
Like you.

 

References 

He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us (2 Corinthians 1:4, NLT).

Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows (John 16:33; NLT).

Comfort each other (1 Thessalonians 5:11; NKJV).

Share each other’s burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ (Galatians 6:2; NLT).

Shall I not drink from the cup of suffering the Father has given me? (John 18:11; NLT).

We will be like him (1 John 3:2; NLT).

Wilderness

 

When we are in a wilderness
Of sorrow,

Of sickness, anger, grief, despair,                       
Or fear,

Remind us you’ve experienced 
This too, Lord, 

And that you suffer with us,
Always near.

 

References

Some wandered in the wilderness, lost and homeless (Psalm 107; 4; NLT).

Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted (Matthew 4:1; NLT).

How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart every day?(Psalm 13:2; NLT).

Sickness: Then Pilate had Jesus flogged with a lead-tipped whip (John 19:1; NLT).

Anger: Jesus made a whip from some ropes and chased them all out of the temple. He drove out the sheep and cattle, scattered the money changers’ coins over the floor,  and turned over their tables (John 2:15; NLT).

Grief: Then Jesus wept. The people who were standing nearby said, “See how much he loved him!” (John 11:35-6; NLT).

Despair: My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? (Mark 15:34; NLT).

Fear: He was in such agony of spirit that his sweat fell to the ground like great drops of blood (Luke 22:44; NLT).

Shall I not drink from the cup of suffering the Father has given me? (John 18:11; NLT).

In all their suffering he also suffered (Isaiah 63:9; NLT).

Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff – they comfort me (Psalm 23:4; NRSV).

Seek God

 

Seek God in your suffering,
Seek him in your pain;

Seek him in your anguish,
Seek him: he is near.

Seek God in your wilderness,
Seek him in your fear;

Seek him in your darkness –
You will find him: he is here.

 

References 

Keep on seeking, and you will find (Matthew 7:7; NLT). 

The Kingdom of Heaven is near (Matthew 4:17; NIV).

In all their suffering he also suffered (Isaiah 63:9; NLT).

The kingdom of God is within you (Luke 17:21; KJV).

Pain

 

Lord, I’ve got a migraine, yet again…

Pain for the sake of pain
Can seem so pointless,

Yet illness may be borne
In different ways:

With anger, deep resentment,
Or self-pity;

With patience, peace, acceptance –
Even praise.

So, may I suffer willingly, 
As you did, 

For sickness 
Is a sacred invitation

To bear my cross
While pleading, Lord, for others,

And pray for them,
While sharing in their pain. 

 

References 

Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows (John 16:33; NLT).

My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9; NLT).

The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control (Galatians 5:22-3; NRSV).

If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine (Matthew 26:39; NLT).

Take up your cross daily, and follow me (Luke 9:23; NLT).