5.5.23: Forgiving myself

Praying woman, Nationalmuseum, artist unknown.

This prayer arrived yesterday morning, and I was able to spend time putting it into words during the evening:

I confess my sins; I am deeply sorry for what I have done (Psalm 38:18; NLT). 

Lord God,

I’ve said I’m sorry
For my sins.
I’ve asked you to forgive me,
And forget.

Please don’t condemn
Your servant out of hand –
Lord God, don’t scorn my sorrow,
Or reject. 

Please heal the fear
That I have lost your love,
So I have nothing worse, Lord,
To regret.

Then help me, please,
To leave the past behind,
Forgive myself, and trust
You’ve paid my debt.

I have swept away your sins like a cloud. I have scattered your offenses like the morning mist. Oh, return to me, for I have paid the price to set you free (Isaiah 44:22; NLT).


My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise (Psalm 51:17; NIV). 

Do not turn your back on me. Do not reject your servant in anger. You have always been my helper. Don’t leave me now; don’t abandon me, O God of my salvation! (Psalm 27:9; NLT). 

The kind of sorrow God wants us to experience leads us away from sin and results in salvation. There’s no regret for that kind of sorrow. But worldly sorrow, which lacks repentance, results in spiritual death (2 Corinthians 7:10; NLT). 

The LORD will not reject his people (Psalm 94:14; NLT). 

He loves us with unfailing love; the LORD’s faithfulness endures forever. Praise the LORD! (Psalm 117:2; NLT). 

2 thoughts on “5.5.23: Forgiving myself

  • What a beautiful prayer dearest Ruth! There is a 4 cm lesion on my lung. I know that from my doctor. Furthermore I have hiatus hernia and diverticulitis. Precious Blood of Jesus heal me if it is Thy will. Precious Blood of Jesus please heal my dearest friend Ruth. You cursed the fig tree. Please Lord, curse all unhealthy lesions from our bodies forever Amen

    • My dear Bea, thank you so much for sharing this news with me. I’m so sorry to hear about your lesion, your hernia, and the diverticulitis. Do you know what needs to happen next, medically, especially to treat the lesion? I am praying for you and caring about you. Do stay in touch. With much love from Ruth xxxxxx

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