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Contemplation

Father, 
When I come to you in silence 
My body can’t be left outside the door;
So I share my pain and sickness with you,
Then I find they trouble me no more. 

Father,
When I search for you in stillness  
Endless thoughts and fantasies hold sway;
So I share my vague distractions with you, 
Then I find they slowly drift away.

Father, 
When I seek you out in private 
Painful feelings can’t be pushed aside; 
So I share my rage and sorrow with you,
Then I find they quietly subside. 

Father,
When I wait for you in darkness 
Terror sometimes shakes me to the core; 
But I share my fear and anguish with you,
Then I let them go, Lord, and adore. 

 

References

Be silent before the Sovereign Lord (Zephaniah 1:7; NIV).

Be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10; NIV). 

When you pray, go away by yourself, shut the door behind you, and pray to your Father in private (Matthew 6:6; NLT).

Wait for the Lord (Psalm 37:34; NIV).

Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed (Mark 1:35; NIV).

We adore you as the one who is over all things (1 Chronicles 29:11; NLT).

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When sorrow comes

When sorrow comes
I long for you,
While you, Lord,
Comfort me.

When sickness strikes
I search for you,
While you, Lord,
Make me whole.

When life is hard
I cry to you,
While you, Lord,
Strengthen me.

When darkness falls
I beg your help,
While you, Lord,
Heal my soul. 

 

References

Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows (John 16:33; NLT).

Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me (Psalm 23:4; NLT).

May the God of peace make you holy in every way (1 Thessalonians 5:23; NLT).

You encourage me by giving me your strength (Psalm 138:3; NLT).

He restores my soul (Psalm 23:3; NKJV).

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Speak the truth

Father,

May I always 
Speak the truth 
To you in prayer,

With no pretence, 
”Forgetting”,
Or false shame;

And may I pray 
At all times 
In your Holy Spirit, Lord, 

With faith, and hope, 
And love,
Through your Son’s name.

 

References 

We will speak the truth in love, growing in every way more and more like Christ (Ephesians 4:15; NLT).

Pray continually (1 Thessalonians 5:17; NIV). 

Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion (Ephesians 6:18; NLT).

Three things will last forever — faith, hope and love — and the greatest of these is love (1 Corinthians 13:13; NLT).

Ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it (John 14:14; NLT).

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When I can’t rejoice

When I can’t rejoice, Lord,
May I pray.

When I cannot pray, Lord, 
May I sleep.

When I cannot sleep, Lord,
May I rest.

When I cannot rest, Lord, 
May I weep.

When I cannot weep, Lord,
May I wait –

Enduring all,
For you will keep me safe. 

References

Always be joyful (1 Thessalonians 5:16; NLT).

Never stop praying (1 Thessalonians 5:17; NLT).

I think, ‘My bed will comfort me, and sleep will ease my misery’ (Job 7:13; NLT).

I am churning within and cannot rest (Job 30:27; CSB).

I weep with sorrow (Psalm 119:28; NLT).

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him (Psalm 37:7; NIV).

In everything we do, we show that we are true ministers of God. We patiently endure troubles and hardships and calamities of every kind (2 Corinthians 6:4; NLT).

You alone, O Lord, will keep me safe (Psalm 4:8; NLT).

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You offer us forgiveness

 

Lord,

You offer us forgiveness,
And healing,
Blessing, too —

If only we will hear your voice,  
And turn our hearts
To you. 

You offer us redemption,
Bought with your flesh
And blood —

If only we will seek your face, 
And turn to you 
With love. 

 

References

He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases (Psalm 103:2-4; NLT).

God, our God, blesses us (Psalm 67:6; NIV).

If only you would listen to his voice today! (Psalm 95:7; NLT).

Repent of your sins and turn to God, for the Kingdom of Heaven is near (Matthew 4:17: NLT).

With his own blood […] he entered the Most Holy Place once for all time and secured our redemption forever (Hebrews 9:12; NLT).

Seek his face always (1 Chronicles 16:11; NIV).

You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind (Luke 10:27; NLT).

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When we want to talk about ourselves

 

Lord,
When we want to talk about ourselves,
Remind us others may have problems, too,
So we can ask, and listen,
Just like you.

Lord,
When we feel sorry for ourselves,
Remind us others may be suffering, too,
So we can ask, and comfort them,
Like you.

Lord,
When we crave support just for ourselves,
Remind us others may need cheering too,
So we can ask, and strengthen them,
Like you.

Lord,
When we long for love to come our way,
Remind us others may feel lonely, too,
So we can ask, and love them,
Just like you.

 

References

How frail is humanity! How short is life, how full of trouble (Job 14:1; NLT).

They suffer painfully; their life is full of trouble (Job 14:22; NLT).

When Jesus heard them, he stopped and called, “What do you want me to do for you?” (Matthew 20:32; NLT).

Share each other’s burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ (Galatians 6:2; NLT).

Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn (Romans 12:15).

In all their suffering he also suffered (Isaiah 63:9; NLT).

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Spiritual darkness

 

Lord,

When I’m in  
Spiritual darkness,

I’m simply in the shadow
Of your wing. 

 

References

Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me (Psalm 23: 4; NLT).

Moses approached the thick darkness where God was (Exodus 20:21; NLY).

All humanity finds shelter in the shadow of your wings (Psalm 36:7; NLT).

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