Breast cancer, mastectomy,, mental illness, Prayer, sin, suffering

Dreams

Every night, I dream, Lord,
Of my failures;
Failure to be liked,
And to fit in.

Two failed degrees.
No genuine career, Lord;
Failure to be beautiful,
And slim.

Failure as a daughter,
Wife, and mother;
Failure as a grandmother,
And friend.

Failed health, Lord God,
Both physical and mental;
Failure as a person, 
In the end. 

Failure after failure  
In my faith, Lord;
Failure in my thoughts,
And words, and deeds,

So, here I am, now,
Bowing low before you,
With little to give back,
And many needs.

For I amount to nothing;
I have failed you; 
But you, Lord, are the High Priest
Who redeems;

Please fold me in your arms
For evermore, Lord,   
Then I will sleep, protected from 
My dreams.

 

References

Exalt the Lord our God! Bow low before his feet, for he is holy! (Psalm 99:5; NLT).

I am poor and needy, and my heart is full of pain (Psalm 109:22; NLT).

I am nothing but dust and ashes (Genesis 18:27; NIV).

O Lord, you are our Father (Isaiah 64:8; NLT).

So Christ has now become the High Priest […] With his own blood – not the blood of goats and calves – he entered the Most Holy Place once for all time and secured our redemption forever (Hebrews 9:11-12; NLT).

He took the children in his arms (Mark 10:16; NLT).

In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe (Ezekiel 34:25; NLT).

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Bending to your will

Lord,

May I face my enemies
As you did —

With swift forgiveness, 
Bending to your will. 

May I face my deepest fears 
As you did —

With cries for help,
Yet bending to your will.

May I face my suffering 
As you did — 

With full acceptance, 
Bending to your will. 

May I face my life and death 
As you did —

With constant prayer,
While bending to your will.

References

When they came to the place called The Skull, they nailed him to the cross […] Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they don’t know what they are doing” (Luke 23:33-4; NLT).

If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine (Matthew 26:39; NLT).

Pray constantly (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18; NIV).

May your will be done (Matthew 6:10; NLT).

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You offer us forgiveness

 

Lord,

You offer us forgiveness,
And healing,
Blessing, too —

If only we will hear your voice,  
And turn our hearts
To you. 

You offer us redemption,
Bought with your flesh
And blood —

If only we will seek your face, 
And turn to you 
With love. 

 

References

He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases (Psalm 103:2-4; NLT).

God, our God, blesses us (Psalm 67:6; NIV).

If only you would listen to his voice today! (Psalm 95:7; NLT).

Repent of your sins and turn to God, for the Kingdom of Heaven is near (Matthew 4:17: NLT).

With his own blood […] he entered the Most Holy Place once for all time and secured our redemption forever (Hebrews 9:12; NLT).

Seek his face always (1 Chronicles 16:11; NIV).

You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind (Luke 10:27; NLT).

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You love me

 

Father,
You love me,
So nothing else matters –

Not even trials
Or fears. 

Jesus,
You love me,
So nothing else matters –

Not even sorrow
Or tears.

Mary, 
You love me,
So nothing else matters –

Not even sickness
Or stress. 

Spirit,
You love me,
So nothing else matters –

Not even life, Lord, 
Or death.

 

References

He loves us with unfailing love (Psalm 117:2; NLT).

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We belong to you

 

Thank you, Lord,
That we belong to you;

We are your people –
Family, and friends; 

Disciples, servants,
Followers, and slaves,

Your sons and daughters, Lord, 
Until life’s end. 

 

References

Whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord (Romans 14:8; NIV).

I will be their God, and they shall be my people (2 Corinthians 6:16; NLT).

Jesus replied […], “Anyone who does God’s will is my brother and sister and mother” (Mark 3:33-5; NLT).

Our Lord Jesus Christ has made us friends of God (Romans 5:11; NLT).

Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples (John 13:35; NLT).

I am the Lord’s servant (Luke 1:38; NLT).

If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me (Matthew 16:24; NLT).

Whoever wants to be first among you must be the slave of everyone else (Mark 10:44; NLT).

I will be your Father, and you will be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty (2 Corinthians 6:18; NLT).

To all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God (John 1:12; NIV).

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Be open

 

Be open
To the presence
Of our God –

The One who makes
The earth, and sea, 
And sky;

The One who shares 
Our lives of pain 
And pleasure;

The One who gave us 
His dear Son –
To die.  

 

References

Surely the Lord is in this place, and I wasn’t even aware of it! (Genesis 28:16; NLT).

There is only one God, the Father, who created everything, and we live for him (1 Corinthians 8:6; NLT).

In all their suffering he also suffered (Isaiah 63:9; NLT).

Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn (Romans 12:15).

God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life (John 3:16; RSV).

This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased (Matthew 17:5; NIV).

The Son of Man must die, as the Scriptures declared long ago (Mark 14:21; NLT).

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May I share

 

Jesus,
May I share your birth;

Jesus,
May I share your breath.

Jesus,
May I share your pain; 

Jesus, 
May I share your death.

Jesus,
May I share your flesh;

Jesus,
May I share your blood.

Jesus,
May I share your faith;

Jesus,
May I share your love.

 

References

Unless you are born again, you cannot see the Kingdom of God (John 3:3; NLT).

Then he breathed on them and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit” John 20:22; NLT).

If we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering (Romans 8:17; NLT).

Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies (2 Corinthians 4:10; NLT).

Anyone who eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life (John 6:54; NLT).

If you have faith and don’t doubt, you can do things like this and much more (Matthew 21:21; NLT).

Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends (John 15:13; NIV).

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