If the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed (John 8:36; NIV).
I’ve spent far too much of my life:
- Trying to be what others want me to be.
- Trying to behave as others desire, expect, require, or demand.
- Trying to make myself believe, feel, think, say and do what others tell me I should.
- Trying to pray, worship and serve as others say I should.
- Trying to live as others say I should.
But now I’m working on personal change. This means:
- Listening to myself, so I can discover how I feel, what I think, and what I want to say and do.
- Finding out what I truly believe, and how I want to pray, worship, and serve.
- Taking steps to live in ways which are meaningful to me, rather than depressing.
I have always felt guilty when others are disappointed in me for not being, or doing, as they expect. Fear of their disgust, anger and rejection makes me very anxious. This fear dates back to my emotionally abusive childhood. However, I am now facing up to these inner challenges on a daily basis.
So, at 72 years old, I’m just starting to have life to the full, and beginning to experience moments of genuine fulfilment and joy: the joy of being myself.
I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full (John 10.10; NIV).
how very true, my dearest sister in Christ.
Just to let you know that I do not need further treatment regarding my breast operation. Thank you for your prayers dearest Ruth. My prayers for you are ongoing and forever.. God bless you
Bea xxxx
Oh, Bea, thank you for your comment, and thank you for your news. I’m absolutely delighted for you. Huge congratulations! XXXXXXX