Yesterday, out of the blue, I was viciously criticised online by a man who said he was a theologian. In several long messages he vented his complete rejection of my faith, my writing, my spiritual life and my website. He rubbished everything I share with you, and could not grasp my central aim: that others who also suffer may feel a little less alone, and find some comfort and hope here in my honesty.
I tried to engage with this man, but it was hopeless. I told him how badly he had hurt me, and asked him to apologise, so we could be reconciled. I told him I was praying for him. In response, he became offensive, so I had to block him. In all the years I’ve been running this website, I’ve only had to do that once before.
Straight after posting this message, I will pray for him again. Then I will begin the long process of recovering from his abuse, and forgiving him for the damage he has done to me. What made him act like this? I have no idea, other than that it seemed to be an explosive reaction to reading my latest blog: “Here I am, Jesus!” This is a link to it, in case you would like to read it for yourself: https://wp.me/p45bCr-lH3.
Friends, I am deeply saddened, shaken and disturbed by this man’s bitter verbal attack. Please pray for me, as I cling to Christ for support, and pray for him too, if you can find it in your heart to join me in doing so.
With much love to you all, from Ruth xxxx
Dearest Ruth K.
I’m praying that God will renew your confidence and faith as you shared the sad incident of the angry man who insulted you (and our Lord.) The prayer you shared on the blog written by Charles de Foucald reminded me that Charles de Foucald lived a life not through sermons and leading a church but by the example and words of his own life. This is the gifting that God has given you, so You and I and many others of your friends and readers of your blogs will do the same as we join together to pray for this angry man ( why do they always call themselves theologians!!) and love and care for you.
We love you Ruth K and I personally thank God for you and the day I first read your blogs. Your words have kept me together many times this kasy year as I’ve struggled with heartbreak and dis- ease.
May our Father Bless you today and keep your mind and heart safe in His sheltering arms.
Love in Jesus dear friend and sister
From Rev Ruth M
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My dear Ruth, thank you so much for your amazing message of support. Your words, and the fact that you wrote, mean so much to me! Thank you also for joining me in prayer for this poor man. It was truly horrifying to glimpse what is inside his mind, heart and soul, so let’s pray for his healing. It makes everything worthwhile to know that you find some help and comfort here, and you are both never far from my thoughts. God will bring good out of what has happened, so I pray that it will be for this poor man. May God bless you today and every day. With love from Ruth XXX