After Jacob had crossed with all his possessions, he returned to the camp, and he was completely alone. And there, someone wrestled with Jacob until the first light of dawn (Genesis 32:23-4; TIB).
I’m wrestling with my self, Lord,
In the dark:
Feeling so guilty,
Nagging myself to pray;
Conscious of all
I “ought” to say and do:
Never enough,
And always failing you.
I’m struggling with my self, Lord,
All the time:
Anxious, depressed,
Ashamed of who I am;
Haunted by what
I “ought” to think and feel:
Jesus, have mercy,
Come to me, and heal.
I’m battling with my self, Lord,
Day and night:
Duty, or honesty –
Which do you require?
Broken by conflict –
Can’t I just be me?
Give me your peace, at last,
And set me free!
If the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed (John 8:36; NIV).
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Day and night I have only tears for food, while my enemies continually taunt me, saying, “Where is this God of yours?” (Psalm 42:3; NLT).
What do you want with me, Jesus, Firstborn of the Most High God? (Mark 5:7; TIB).
Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light” (Matthew 11:28-30; NLT).
I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full (John 10.10; NIV).
I am leaving you with a gift – peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid (John 14:27; NLT).