God’s presence


I will lie down and sleep peacefully, for you, Lord, make me safe and secure (Psalm 4:8; NET). 

I sleep in your presence,
Absorbing your love,
Soothed by your peace, Lord,
And safe in your arms.

I wake in your presence,
Suffused by your light,
Hearing your voice, Lord,
And learning your truth.

I rise in your presence,
Accepting each loss,
And, trusting your strength, Lord,
I take up my cross.

If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me (Luke 9:23; NLT).


Close


Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me (Psalm 23:4; NLT).

You are as close to me as breathing.
You are as close to me as dread.
You are as close, Lord, as my heartbeat –
Closer than words unsaid.

You are as close to me as weeping.
You are as close to me as pain.
You are as close to me as anguish –
Closer than guilt, or shame.

You are as close to me as living.
You are as close to me as prayer.
You are as close to me as panic –
Closer than my despair.

You are as close to me as grieving.
You are as close to me as kin.
You are as close to me as dying –
Closer, by far, than sin.

Christ is all that matters, and he lives in all of us (Colossians 3:11; NLT).


Home shrines


Welcome

Hello! A warm welcome to everyone who visits “Seeking God’s face”, and to all who follow here regularly. I pray for you all each day.

Home shrines

This blog brings a very simple message: to suggest that many people could find joy, comfort, support and self-expression through having a home shrine, especially those of us who are sick or disabled, and can no longer go to church.

My shrine 

My shrine is in my bedroom, on the chest of drawers. In this room, I can close the door, and pray in private. The shrine has developed slowly over several years, having started with the large wall cross, a few flowers, a candle, and an incense burner. 

Whenever I want to, I make changes to it, removing items that have served their purpose, and introducing others which are particularly significant for me at the time. As my faith becomes increasingly universal, I plan to incorporate relics from other faiths. Nothing is included out of a sense of obligation or pressure.

Personal spiritual practices

A home shrine offers an opportunity for the daily expression of personally meaningful spiritual practices. For example, I stoop to kiss the small wooden cross at the front, just as a priest kisses the altar before saying mass. Then I dip my fingers in the small bowl of holy water, blessing myself with the sign of the cross. Sometimes I do this in the Roman Catholic way, sometimes in the Russian Orthodox style, just as I wish. 

Occasionally I light a candle or an incense stick, though I never leave these burning in my absence or whilst I’m asleep, in case of fire.

Prayers

My shrine includes two framed prayers which mean a lot to me. Their presence enables me to include them in my daily worship whenever I want to, and reminds me of the words, if I forget them.

The first is about the “little way” of Sainte Thérèse de Lisieux, whose name I took at confirmation (https://wp.me/p45bCr-acZ), whilst the second is a prayer for world peace (https://wp.me/p45bCr-aCa).

Sometimes I am able to stand in front my shrine to pray for a minute or two. However, when I’m too tired, unwell, cold, or lightheaded to do this, I simply begin praying there, then get into bed to continue whilst lying down. Last thing at night, it’s a pleasure to thank God for all my day has brought, both good and bad. Then I say goodnight, and settle down to sleep.

Icons

Whether I’m just passing my shrine, or staying a little longer, I often touch each icon with love before I move on. My room also includes three large wall icons, hanging at just the right height to touch, hold gently with both hands, and kiss, as I whisper my prayers.

A very private place 

Some people might scoff at these  practices, judging them to be sentimental, foolish, pointless, or even idolatrous. However, for me the beauty of my home shrine is that it is a very private place where I can be honest with God without any kind of  formality, using my own words, however few or many they may be. It’s also a very good place to “be still and silent” before God, for a few, precious moments. 

A safe place….

Furthermore, my shrine gives me a “safe place” to return to in my imagination when I need extra support in the outside world. This grounding effect is enhanced by a holding cross, made in Bethlehem from the prunings of olive trees. When I received it, I blessed it at my shrine, then left it there overnight to absorb the essence of its peace and beauty.

…coupled with a holding cross 

During the daytime, I wear this cross around my neck on a long cord, hanging beneath my clothes. When I need it, I discretely retrieve it with the cord. Visualising my shrine whilst holding my cross hidden in the palm of one hand, or clasped between both, is a great source of help, strength and comfort. I do this when I face traumatic events, flashbacks, unpleasant medical treatments, pain, strong emotions, interpersonal conflict, or feared situations. Despite its small size, this little cross powerfully re-connects me to the peace and safety of my shrine. 

At night, I have a similar cross, but on a much shorter cord. Secured around my wrist, it stays in my hand whilst I am asleep. This cross is a tangible, comforting reminder of God’s presence each time I wake up.

Final words 

It feels strange to share these very personal, central aspects of my life with you, yet it seems important to do so. The opportunities offered by home shrines for spiritual nourishment, and for direct, free self-expression before God are far too valuable to keep to myself.

May God bless you all each day.
With much love from Ruth xxxxx


 

Spiritual nourishment


People do not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God
(Matthew 4:4; NLT). 

Just open your eyes (Psalm 91:8; NLT).

When I open my eyes, Lord,
You show me your light;
When I open my mind,
You teach me your truth.

When I open my heart, Lord,
You give me your love;
When I open my soul,
You grant me your peace.

May my eyes, and my mind, Lord, 
My heart, and my soul
Stay open to you,
Who, alone, makes me whole.

Jesus Christ makes you whole (Acts 9:34; KJ2000 Bible).


She is mine


My hands have made both heaven and earth; they and everything in them are mine. I, the Lord, have spoken! (Isaiah 66:2; NLT).

All of you together are Christ’s body, and each of you is a part of it (1 Corinthians 12:27; NLT).

She is mine!
She’s my body –
So do her no harm.

He is mine!
He’s my body –
Don’t hurt, or destroy.

They are mine!
They’re my body –
Don’t wound, rape, or kill.

You are mine!
You’re my body –
Like me, do God’s will.

I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me (John 6:38; NIV).

God’s will is for you to be holy (1 Thessalonians 4:3; NLT). 

All are one in Christ


Didn’t one God create us? Why then do we act treacherously against one another? (Malachi 2:10; NIV).

There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female…

There is neither Jew nor Gentile,
Male nor female, slave nor free.

There is neither black nor white,
Kin nor stranger, you nor me.

There is neither saint nor sinner,
LBGTQ, or straight.

There is neither east nor west,
Nor creed nor dogma, church nor state.

There is neither friend nor foe
Nor refugee, nor us, nor them –

For all are one in Christ:
Our Mother, Father, Spirit, Soul –

Amen.

…for you are all one in Christ Jesus (Galatians 3:28; NIV).


You formed me


The Almighty …blesses you with blessings of the skies above, blessings of the deep springs below, blessings of the breast and the womb (Genesis 49:25; NIV).

Lord,
You formed me in the womb,
Laboured, bore me, gave me breath,
Flooded me with brilliant light,
And washed me with your love.

Next,
You took me in your arms,
And warmed me with your Spirit’s fire,
Fed me with your perfect truth,
And soothed me with your peace. 

Then,
You stood, to carry me
From that day forward, through the years,
Prepared to bear me, and my cross,
To share my joys and tears.

As truly as God is our Father, so truly is God our mother (Revelations of Divine Love, Chapter 59, Julian of Norwich).


Searching


Keep searching…

I’m searching, Lord, for perfect bread,
For perfect water; perfect wine.

I’m searching, Lord, for perfect truth,
For perfect hope, and light, and love.

I’m searching, Lord, for perfect peace,
For perfect freedom from all sin.

I’m searching for the perfect way
And finding you, Lord God, within.

…and you will find (Matthew 7:7; HCSB).

Christ is all that matters, and he lives in all of us (Colossians 3:11; NLT).


 

Enough


Those who gathered a lot [of manna] had nothing left over, and those who gathered only a little had enough (Exodus 16:18; NLT). 

You love me, Lord,
And that’s enough.

You love us all,
And that’s enough.

You hear, and see,
And suffer, Lord,

With everyone
On earth –

And that’s
Enough.

My grace is enough for you (2 Corinthians 12:9; NET).


Why?


I am the one who answers your prayers and cares for you (Hosea 14:8; NLT). 

Why do you care so much for me?
It’s not as though I’m perfect.

Why do you carry me each day?
It’s not as if I’m good.

Why do you make your home in me?
It’s not because I’m sinless –

Father, it’s your nature,
You can’t help it: you are love.

God is love (1 John 4:16; NIV).